Day one

So today is the first day of the rest of my life.  From here I'm not sure where I'm headed or how I'm going to get there.  I just hope that on this trip I have company.  Let me start in the begining.

August/September the wife and I had weight loss surgery. This was one of the best decisions of our lives.  We have list so much weight and are much healthier than we have been been.  We are able to walk up stairs, go hiking, ride bikes enjoy life.  We have our ups and downs due to this.  We have fallen off the diet we are supposed to be following on more than one occasion.  Currently we are off but trying or best to get back on.  You have no idea how addictive sugar actually is until you try to cut it out of your life.

Fast​ forward to today.  We are having issues in our relationship.  We think that the weight loss surgery has caused us to possibly change in more than one of way.  We are working on figuring out where we stand and what we are​ going to be doing.  There are several issues that are currently on the table.  My health has always been putting at the forefront of everything.  I have a chronic ear issue which I will have to live with the rest of my life.  This is the reason we left San Antonio which is probably the place we enjoyed living the most.  However moving to Utah to help resolve or lessen the impact of my ear issues didn't work out as much as we hoped.  I have talked about moving out of Utah, bur she found a job that she actually loves.  This is something she hasn't ever done.  I want to move but I don't want her to have to quit a place she actually enjoys going too.  My ear I think is going to have to take a back seat to my life as, I have been putting myself first for everything and not considering others.  I think, no I know that I will have to change my outlook on life. 

Today I started listening to Christian music for the first time in a very long time.    I felt a calmness over me a which I have not had since I can't remember when. 

I'm currently at the  doctors office for my ear.  I have been getting very dizzy so much so I fell down the stairs in our apartment the other day from th stop step until the bottom. And that wasn't pleasant. 

I know this has been all over the place but I have just been writing what comes to my head.  There will be no consistency to this or format.  It will just be a brain dump of my feelings and thoughts.